Official apology.

Subject: Official apology. Fri Dec 25, 2015 7:14 pm

Well guys. I fucked up a little bit with the way I've been acting. I understand that, I really do. In the hindsight of the whole past couple of days, I have realized quite a bit. What I said earlier today about me leaving was rather harsh. I don't want to make this apology about me, but I want to do some explaining about a few things first before I do issue apology. I've been going through emotional problems, particularly existential issues about myself, in addition to some other things. These existential issues relate to the thought and feeling that I lack purpose in this Academy and in life in general, there is no particular point of me existing. These thoughts highly impact my views and emotions, these thoughts tend to make me think drastically when it comes to the question of lacking the freedom of choice because if there is no choice as to whether there is purpose or not, then there truly is no purpose and these thoughts have lead to much more drastic ones, specifically suicidal thoughts and things of that nature. I apply logic to everything, even things most people wouldn't dare to. I use what I believe to be my sense of well.. Sense. These things topple upon one another and begin to make me question the very existence of the fabric of space-time and that of my own existence. Enough with my explanation, I would like to formally apologize to a number of people. Mani, Sleep Deprived, Hazmah, and Blue I'd like to apologize to you four because I attempted to take you under my wing, but I simply couldn't focus on that because I guess it just wasn't enough for me. I didn't have much influence, much purpose on that. I wanted to apologize for not helping you more. Luke and Kalin, I wanted to apologize to you two because you are the two I go to, to bitch about people and make all-around pointless points, to attack people and try to let out my pent up aggression at life. Rusty, though I rarely talk to you, I wanted to say that I'm sorry for the moments you caught me in. The two major times I talked to you, I was on two opposite sides of the spectrum. The first time I seriously talked to you, I was being nihilistic and couldn't bring myself to accept a purpose, the other time I was being a narcissistic asshole who complained about something when it wasn't the way I liked it. For you, finally, Judgment Dragon, I wanted to apologize for you the way I've acted towards you on multiple occasions. I was an argumentative asshole who thought I was right 100% of the time, without taking the perspectives of other situations into account. I made snide remarks and comments, attacking your intelligence and integrity. I was being childish and immature and I wanted to apologize for that. My friend, Luke, suggested that we had clashing personalities and that was the reason we disliked each other, but I want to say that isn't exactly the reason, I believe. I think it was just the way I've been acting. I just wanted to say that I'm sorry.

I will not be leaving the academy.

Subject: Re: Official apology. Fri Dec 25, 2015 8:08 pm

oh. Ok then... WELL I'm fine... TOTALLY FINE.

Subject: Re: Official apology. Fri Dec 25, 2015 10:52 pm

Good at least we can finish this damn tournament everyones been practicing for T_T

Subject: Re: Official apology. Fri Dec 25, 2015 11:23 pm

Wow, this post is seriously wise and mature. Welcome back, Neko! You're always welcome. =D

Subject: Re: Official apology. Fri Dec 25, 2015 11:31 pm

I don't know you, Neko, but I'd have to agree with Ebilkid, even though the other two people who posted only seem to want something, instead of giving empathy because Neko clearly poured her heart out.

Subject: Re: Official apology. Fri Dec 25, 2015 11:39 pm

No problem, dude. I can't say I understand mostly because I've probably never been in that type of scenario before, but I do empathize for you. Apology accepted.

Subject: Re: Official apology. Sat Dec 26, 2015 3:08 am

dont feel to bad about it, we are very happy that u are not leaving!

Subject: Re: Official apology. Sat Dec 26, 2015 3:19 am

I don't know why you apologized to me, simply because I never felt that you were trying to "take me under your wing"

Anyway, I can understand why you acted childish and immature, you are not the only one that goes through IRL problems. (trust me, I am speaking from first-hand experience)

Regardless, I am happy you returned!

Subject: Re: Official apology. Sat Dec 26, 2015 4:18 am

It's fine. I have this type of personality that means if I'm challenged on something I feel strongly about, then I tend to battle it to the end. I really appreciate you doing this and I accept your apology. I want to apologize myself, to everyone involved or that may have been affected by the situation, for the way I acted in return and I hope we can now move past this, because I don't like disliking people and I would rather have friends here than be hated. We all make mistakes and it seems we both made mistakes that day.

Glad that you decided to stay. bounce

Subject: Re: Official apology. Sat Dec 26, 2015 7:15 am

Np,I'm kinda everyones outlet tool tbh.But yea good to know you aint leaving

Subject: Re: Official apology. Sat Dec 26, 2015 7:56 am

There was absolutely no reason to apologise to me Neko. You know that I'm happy enough for you to talk to me about anything and anything. If bitching is what you want talk about - I'll be happy for you to talk to me, to let it all out and benefit yourself. It's always good to be able to vent - which is why I enjoy venting so much myself. I'll always be able to listen to you - however - as you know, that will never change.

Even though you didn't need to apologise, as I did state earlier, your apology is - of course - accepted by me.

P.s - Ur still a fgt. <3.

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