I'm leaving. This isn't going to come as a surprise to most of you, but yeah.
I was initially contemplating leaving after the admins didn't listen. Time after time they went on with their decisions, but I couldn't do anything. I then realised that no one cared. I was seriously contemplating leaving at this point, but honestly didn't wish to. It was as if shackles contained me.
Then today's drama went on. I had a massive outburst and saw everyone's true colours. Those who I respected turned a cold shoulder and back stabbed me. It was honestly extremely disappointment and from disappointment came anger. This anger acted as a liquid that made me slick. It allowed me to escape the chains that no one else can. Everyone here comes back cos of a sense of longing, and I can hopefully say that I no longer feel that.
I feel as if NA is an abandoned house that wrapped me in chains. The longer I stayed, the harder it became to escape those chains, eventually to the point where most can never fully leave and move on.
The best I could ever do with those chains wrapped around me was walk down the street, but now I'm free. Free to roam the world and create my path.
Maybe I'll come back, who knows? Maybe I'll never fully be able to escape that sense of nostalgia.
